After really understanding the Feminine Power teachings, I began to make new choices and take new actions that reflected a deeper level of congruence and integrity with my own value. As I broke up these beliefs, I began to turn toward the deeper truth of my soul’s reasons for being here, found more purpose in life and shifted my source of power to be fueled by the messages that I was receiving from my unique expression of life through my deeper center. Fears did come up in making myself available to be fully visible, extended and authentically radiant in the world, so I went on a very focused inquiry about why I was being so extremely affected by the aging process and I took the deep dive into a firmly held belief that I had to be beautiful and sexy to be loved. As I systematically worked the practices, I visited the memories of my childhood and loved-up the broken heart of my lonely little girl who longed for her verbally and emotionally abusive, womanizing father’s unrequited loving attention. I processed the woundings of the promiscuity of my “liberated hippy” college girl who was looking for her father’s love in the arms of more men than I can remember. I healed the cellular memories of being burned at the stake for the magic of my knowing through the lineage of my wise and intuitive grandmothers. I learned to trust that I could be safe with other women and even partner with them without needing to feel competitive. I developed my healer and counselor and deepened my artistic skills and offerings. I have created new ways of sourcing safety for myself that have liberated me to begin to shine my radiance brightly and come into the fullness of my power in the world. When I share intimacy with my husband, it is from a place of deep care and celebration of our connection rather than the intense need for sexual gratification to feel good about myself. I am older, more wrinkled and less sexy than I used to be and that is okay. Who I used to be doesn’t hold a candle to the inner radiance that I feel flowing from my heart and out of my eyes, allowing me to touch the hearts of others, without agenda, from a place of honest curiosity and encouragement for them to be all that they came here to be. I feel so much more at peace, very vibrant and am now aware of being fueled by an illuminant ball of golden light, filled with all of the love that I have ever known that supports me whenever my heart’s light begins to dim. It points me to the soft underbelly of the next false belief with compassion for the details of my humanness and holds my Younger Self until she can relax in this love and allow me to turn again toward the messages of my soul’s longing to fulfill my many purposes for being a spiritual being in human form.
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